I need to pause for a moment and touch base with reality for a second.
As I’m sure like many of you, school just ended, or is right around the corner. Today was my kiddos last day of school.
The past two weeks have been SO insanely intense! Events and celebrations during the school day, concerts and award ceremonies into the evenings. Baseball games, tumbling, and then throw in trying to fit in work around all of that. Plus a dose of my own PTSD showing up. It would be an understatement to say I am exhausted.
My self care day consisted of hiking my new favorite trail! I went about 3 miles up before my phone died, and then ran most of the way down so I would hopefully make it back to the school to get pictures of my kiddos with their teachers. I made it with 2 minutes to spare. (enter the rat race again…)
Then I came home and took a nap and told my kiddos that they cannot ask me for anything for the entire weekend. lol.
I know that all of us are dealing with our own struggles and situations right now. And many of us have unspoken wounds and burdens that we are juggling as best we can while wondering how we’ll even get through them.
If there is one thing I’ve learned it’s that the most important thing we can do is to take care of ourselves. We have to make sure we are ok in order to be able to show up and help anyone else.
If we are shut-down, acting from a place of reactivity, defensiveness, or survival, we aren’t going to be any good for anyone. (I mean, we ARE and we will be, but not compared to if we were healthy or healing and coming from a place where we can hold space for ourselves AND those around us.)
It’s important to recognize where we’re at, how we’re feeling, and what we need. And then do what we can to meet those needs, one step at a time. Which can also feel impossible with all the other plates we are juggling. But I know first hand, that if we don’t find balance and fit this in, pretty soon we won’t be juggling any plates as they’ll all end up crashing to the floor (initiate self-sabotaging patterns and behaviors).
The other day I wrote a blog post stating that I wasn’t sure how I fit into this space anymore.
A few days later I realized that I want to incorporate all the healing tools and methodologies I’ve learned over the past couple of years, and focus on quilting and creating as a healing tool. A creative outlet that allows ourselves to get in touch with what is going on inside of us.
This isn’t actually something new, as I think I’ve always had that underlying theme and purpose, but I haven’t done a very good job at making that clear in my messaging and what I share and put out there.
I realized that no matter what, I’m going to be showing up again in this space, but this time I want to make sure it’s meaningful and impactful. I want to help people more than just designing and sharing a pattern or teaching a class. I want to support all of us in this collective healing journey through connection, creativity, and encouragement (what’s another word for that that starts with a “c”? lol).
Maybe that’s not your thing. And that’s ok. I’m still not exactly sure what this even means or what that will look like. It’ll definitely include a bit of trial and error as I figure out what works and what doesn’t. I hope you’ll stick around and join me!
If you are interested in joining me in my coaching facebook group, where I’m focusing on connection and healing through awareness (knowledge and understanding are so empowering), integrating – using the mind-body techniques and tools to heal our nervous systems, clear blocks and release our patterns, and heal through self-compassion, please come join me! You can join here: https://facebook.com/groups/dianeriver
All of this to say…
I needed a break today from blog posts, newsletters social media. And I took that break.
So the sale is on hold today and will resume tomorrow morning. I’ll extend today’s sale have double discounts tomorrow.
Because it’s ok to be human. It’s ok to admit that some things are too much in this moment. And it’s ok if everything doesn’t run perfectly smooth – and good thing because it hasn’t so far. lol. But I’ll get there!
I wish you all the goodness and peace the world has to offer. Which doesn’t seem like much right now, but it’s there! I know it is.